I don’t know why i write this but the thing is i feel so sad. I think no one can understand my feelings. No one. If i can turn back time, i will change the whole things that i thought wrong. I’ve been looking for true friends! It’s just true friends! But i find no one, You can imagine how sad i am. I’ve been sacrifice my feelings in order to please everybody’s heart but no one can understand me at all. No one ever try. It is true kawan masa senang memang ramai tapi masa susah hilang entah ke mana. I wanna be independent from now on. Sometimes i think yang aku ni dah terjerat dengan kebaikan yang aku lakukan sendiri. It hurts me so much. I might say that i look happy inside but outside. It’s only me that i have. Only me. I’ve always done something wrong in this life. I don’t know how to decide which one is good for me. I’ll bring myself alone. I admit that i’m crying right now. Let me keep this shit right inside my heart. To you. Please if you don’t wanna be my friend just let me go. Don’t say that you need me. Please don’t say that. You’ve got a new one. Somebody that can replace me. If you’re not able to make friend with me anymore. Just go! Coz i know that i can be independent. At least don’t show the fake right in front of me. I can do my best. Thank you so much for do this to me. Every and each my tear drop reperesents how much i assume you as my best friend until you forget about me. Athirah. Just go with the flow. Don’t put so much hopes. Ya Allah, please give me some strength to face this life that full of barriers. Amin.
When I miss you, sometimes I listen to music or look at pictures of you, not to remind me of you but to make me feel as if I’m with you. It makes me forget the distance and capture you. I’m waiting for you to come back here and spend more time with me. As time rolls on, i realize that I’ve learned in accepting not just the good part of you but also the bad part. It’s not just we’ve been a loving couple but also have been good friends. I love you so much Muhammad Ritzuan.
|I congratulate you Mama for receiving The Best Teacher Awards 2012 (English and Business Studies).|
|Puan Lela (second from left), Doctor Aida (Centre), Miss Wani (hold the mineral water); they are my lecturers. P/s: Puan Lela, I took your picture form your BBM Default picture. Thanks for allowed me to keep this beautiful picture. Geeee =D|
Without you, i would have been lost.
Thank you teacher for guiding me, inspiring me
And making me what i am today.
Happy Teachers Day!
First of all, i wanna inform to you guys that this is not my story okay. Haha. Today i’d like to talk about a cliche thing which we’ve often heard it from our friends or maybe our siblings. This is about HUBUNGAN RETAK MENANTI BELAH. I’m gonna tell this especially to girls. Why? Based on my observation, females have been categorized as love victims. MOSTLY. So, these are the signs your boyfriend wants or tries to go away/ break up/ get rid of you. Girls! Check it out yawwww!
PERBUALAN KORANG SANGAT BORING (Dah tak tahu nak cakap apa)
Kalau korang nak test boyfriend korang (for those yang dah tahu hubungan diorang dah nak hancur tapi nak bukti lagi) cuba tanya boyfriend korang soalan yang berkaitan dengan future korang. Kalau dia tak nak or macam cuba mengelak. Tu dah terang lagi bersuluh lah kan. Maknanya diorang tak nak pun jadikan korang ni isteri diorang. Korang cuma dijadikan sebagai perhiasan atau nak mainkan korang. Lepas tu, kalau korang cuba cakap dengan boyfriend korang, dia mesti pandang tempat lain. Hello, come on lah, ini bukan zaman tok kaduk nak cakap pandang ke bawah ke tepi. Nak malu-malu bagai. Kalau someone tu betul-betul suka dekat korang, dia akan pandang tepat dekat mata korang kalau bercakap (Kalau korang punya relationship dah lama lah). Kalau baru…out of question!
Ini merupakan tanda yang paling kita boleh nampak dengan mata kasar. Cuba bandingkan or flashback masa korang happy and rapat dulu, korang mesti spend time together, it’s like merpati dua sejoli lah. Pergi mana-mana pun together macam tengok wayang, makan, shopping semua tu lah, benda yang korang selalu buat sama-sama tapi sekarang dah jarang or dah tak buat langsung. Bila korang ajak keluar je, dia dah tak nak or cuba mengelak, sering bagi banyak alasan yang tak logik. Ala, korang faham-faham sendirilah.
YOU AND YOUR BOYFRIEND DAH TAK BERGADUH
Mungkin ada sesetengah menganggap kalau tak bergaduh maka aman lah perhubungan. Sebenarnya tak betul teori tu. Itu cuma terjadi kalau korang betul-betul rapat gila tahap gaban. Dia faham korang and korang pun faham dia. So, it’s confirm susah nak gaduh. But if it happens conversely, korang kena jaga-jaga sebab bila korang jarang gaduh, maknanya, boyfriend korang dah malas nak layan korang. Selalunya, kalau kita gaduh, mesti boyfriend kita pujuk kita kan but this one TIDAK, dia buat bodoh je dengan korang. Dah tak fikir perasaan korang. Apa nak jadi, jadi lah.
So ladies, please think about it okay. Please do something to save your relationship or else ANGKAT KAKI. =D
Thanks for reading
Eat lots of chocolate
I hope that I don’t sound to insane when I say that i hope one day we get married just to say we really did it. Without realizing, our relationship has reached almost two years and i wanna make you to fall with me again like we first met. I may not get to see you as often as I like. I may not get to hold you in my arms all through the night. But deep in my heart I truly know, you’re the one that I love, and I can’t let you go. This song is for us. I’ve been dreaming that i will turn on this song for our wedding. I love you so much Muhammad Ritzuan.
Finally my wish to go to the book fair at PWTC has been fulfilled. And most importantly, I got my books that I want so bad. First book is Langit Vanilla from Wani Ardy. She is my lecturer. I’m happy for getting to know her, though, it’s for a while. Wait! I just remembered something. She’s gonna teach me in Writing Theory on next semester. Yeay! I love this book because she uses a very simple language which means easy to understand and every stanza of a poem and every story have its own meaning. Deeply, implied. Wanna know more about this book. Go and get it!
Second books are Cinta Kau dan Aku, Lafazkan Kalimah Cintamu and Takdir itu milik aku written by Siti Rosmizah. She has been one of my favorite Malay novelists. It is very worth it to have novels of her. So far, I’m not disappointed of collecting all of her novels.
I’m glad that i met her. At first, I was like where is she. Please, Bring me to meet her. My mom was giving me an I-DON’T-GIVE-A-DAMN face. Haha.
Suddenly, i saw a picture of her. A big one in front of exit door. I went in. I saw someone with sunglasses and brown hijab. And then i asked her.
Me : Are you Siti Rosmizah? (Pretending that i haven’t met her before)
SR : Yes. (Smiled at me)
Me : I’d like to have your signature. (Excited)
SR : Sure (She took the novel from my hand
Me : You wanna go home?
SR : Yup! What’s your name?
Me : Athirah. Owh! A-T-H-I-R-A-H. (I hate to do that every time people wanna write my name!)
SR : Thank you Athirah for supporting me.
Me: (I was just giving her an adorable smile and saying) See ya!
She looked pretty you know!
You guys must believe that i had bought so many books. These past few days, i don’t know why, i kept buying books. Oh please, i don’t wanna know how much I’ve spent money for that. A day before, i went to KINOKUNIYA, KLCC. Alone. I didn’t know where to go and then i decided to go to the bookshop. And i was like it’s hard to decide on which one to choose. It ended up with grabbed-all-the-books session. All i did was grabbing the books that i saw in front of my eyes. JUST GRAB. I had spent a hundred for those books yawww! This is what we call BOOKS ADDICT. I love to read and i think i need to read. Why? It gains knowledge. In fact, it avoids us for being dotage.
Last but not least, i met NAJWA accidentally at the book fair. Wahhhh. She looked different. She has turned a bit chubby. Hehe. She’s very beautiful. Najwa, you’d promised me to come to my house. I’m waiting for you. =)
Here, i show you guys several pictures of mine. I hope you guys like it.
For those who have already bought books at PWTC book fair. Lettura felice! (Happy reading!)
|TAKDIR ITU MILIK AKU with Siti Rosmizah.|
|LANGIT VANILLA written by Wani Ardy.|
|NAJWA AMEER ALI. We have the same color of handbag! =D|
|These are the books that i bought at KINOKUNIYA, KLCC. BTW, do you guys notice the SYDNEY map? Actually i pasted it on my wall in my room as my inspiration to study harder! (I want further my studies in overseas. InsyaALLAH)|
|I bought these books with a blink of an eye. Don’t say anything. Please.|
|My family and i had our dinner at Pizza Hut, Lucky Garden, Bangsar. OMG! Arifah! What’s happening??? Why did you turning like that?|
Thank you for reading,
Eat lots of chocolates