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This is my first time of being kicked out from the class. It hurts actually. At first, I was holding myself to not to cry but actually, I must cry in order to make my heart feels better. I don’t wanna burden my heart. For me, I never thought that she can be such cruel. She never considers my reason at all or maybe show a lil bit sympathy. Even though, I’ve tried to show my letter to her but she did not want to see it. I think she cannot be a lecturer. How could she be so heartless? I am now deciding that it’s okay if I can’t score BEL paper just like past semesters. This time i realized that I can’t get an A for BEL anymore. I have my own strategy to remain the CGPA.
I felt relief that I’ve sent the group works to her. I was just thinking about Fiera and Wani. I don’t want them to be scolded by her just because of my absence. Even though, I can’t go in but at least I was able to send those papers to her. I still wanna show my responsibility as a part of the group. Work still work.
What goes around always comes around. I hope she realizes the thing she has done to her students. I’m not a kid anymore. But at least give me a chance to change my bad attitude not just simply punish without consideration.
I felt sad when I heard that there is a screen student who comes late to the class but still she can give him the cutest smile and allows him to go in. What the fuck is that? I just don’t understand why she is so unfair! I can see from her eyes that she doesn’t like me but who cares! It’s not her who’s going to mark my final paper. I’m just tired of being nice and pretending that I like the way she teaches me in the class. Now I understand why my classmate has given up to stay in her class and decided to repeat the paper. I will pray for him that he will not get that kind of lecturer for his BEL future class.
For those who never be in my shoes, please don’t break my heart by saying those rubbish words. I know that I’m neither a good example nor a role model for my classmates even though I get Dean List for every semester. I’m so sorry guys but still I do my best in every single thing. No body’s perfect. Like me, I’m not perfect. I have so much weaknesses than you guys ever know.
Right now, I’m just thinking that whatever it is, I will attend the class no matter how hurt it is and pretend like nothing happens. I do it for my ayah and mama and my siblings. I know that they are expecting me to be the best. It’s just you know, I have a habit to come late to the class. Haha. I hope my classmates will ignore and not ask me about this shit thing. I feel totally embarrassing. 

Someone told me that there’s nothing to worry about, I’ve faced a bunch of worse experiences rather than this! She’s just my antagonist in chapter of my life or else a boulder that trapped Aron Ralston in a canyon.

One Funny Moment at CTU Class.

On these past few days, i don’t know why funny things happened to me? It was all happened when i had problem that i just can’t handle and suddenly it affected me you know. I supposed to go to the CTU class at 4.00 pm but i didn’t know why the hell on earth i went to the class at 2.30. The story begins when i felt so low and down because i fought with someone. I just force my self to not to cry! But you know instead of forcing myself to not to cry,  it made me lose focus in doing something!!!!

OMG! AJ (my roommate) told me that Abid (AJ and Abid are screen students) has laughed out loud until he cried out on the floor of thinking how did i look when i was entering into a wrong class. Actually, i had had entered their class. My class supposed to start after their class.OMG! It was so embarrassing! I know it was my mistake. I supposed to look around first to make sure i go to the right class but i was just ketuk and pakai redah je and dengan confidentnya cakap “Ustaz, i’m so sorry sebab lambat.” Then, Ustaz showed me a strange face, then i looked at every face of the students in the class but i still cannot accept that i had had entered into a wrong class. With blurr face, i said “where are the rest?” then AJ sambil gelak kuat gila gaban said “Tyra, kelas you lepas kitorang lah, you dah silap masuk kelas ni.” At this moment, i think my brain had started to work, then i realized that it is true that i’ve had entered into a wrong class. Dengan rasa terkejutnya, i said out loud “Really? OMG! Bapak malu glerr! Serious malu gilerrr!” At this time i felt that, i didn’t know what to do and you know i was very menggelabah. Everybody was laughing at me. Eventually, i decided to join the class. AJ offered me to seat at the front side. It will be a NO okay! Dah malu glerr kowt. Then, i seat at the back. I know that Ustaz wanted to laugh too but he tried to remain calm. Hahaha.

This story never ends here and people (Screen students) are still teasing me up. Fuhh! What a shame! They said that, they’ll never forget this incident forever. AJ said that this kind of incident is very rare to happened. It is very unforgettable moment ever!!!!!

Every day, I have a most embarrassing moment.