Archive for September, 2011

Goodbye Science. Hello Art!

Certain people especially my old friends still don’t know that i had changed my course since one or two years ago. I can’t remember. So, before you ask me like this cliche question “What! Athirah baru semester 2?” It’s better i tell you that yeah! I’m now in UiTM, Puncak Perdana, studying a new course that is Diploma Creative Technology (Artistic Writing).You can’t imagine how happy i am to be in here. =) I had left Computer Science behind. I’m no longer taking a course that related to the science tingy just like before because you know why? It’s because i can’t do it. Full stop! I just don’t wanna hear “Athirah, kau tak rugi ke tukar course? Sayangnyerr. Course kau ni kerja apa? Bla Bla Bla…” Enough okay. I’m sick of it. Work? You don’t need to think about that yet. All you need to do is study! Let Allah do the rest. Every course has its own advantages. Otherwise, i’ve been investigated what this course is all about. I have my own reason why i choose this course. Don’t be too judgemental and narrow-minded. What for if we take a hardcore or fame course but we can’t make it at last? It’s much better for we take a course that suitable with our capability and we can score with flying colours. Thanks autie Ita for tell me that. I’m regret, it took a very long time to realize about this. If i know, i would take this course long time ago. I had been wasted  more than 6 months to study the things that i can’t do and i don’t like at all.

It’s soooooooo true!

 I still remember that i got many offers to further study. I was interested with these two offers only. Pharmacy at Masterskill and Chemical Engineering at UniKL. In my mind, i just wanna be an engineer. OMG! Is that true? What ridiculous! Just so you know, i had been offered a course that related to the pilot profession either! With that kind of shit result? How come i just simply can be offered all that courses. As if like i got a 10 A’s result in SPM. I feel like i wanna laugh out loud. I feel so dumb when thinking about my past life. I didn’t know how to make a right decision. I thank mama because she stopped me from letting me reach that ridiculous dream. She has many reasons to object my plans. First, the fees are so expensive. Second, the course is so hard for me to make it. I know she didn’t mean to let me down but it makes me realize until now that whatever the reasons are. Mama is right. She knows me. I’m his daughter anyway. I can’t pay the fees in future. I just don’t want! All i want to do is, i wanna be free. I don’t wanna have my working life in order to pay the debt. Hell no! Contrasly, i wanna buy a car, a house, i wanna build my life. Can’t wait for that! Additional to that, i wanna feel free to further my studies until the highest level. I wanna be a lecturer. Now, that’s my dream. Pray for me okay. I’m glad that i’ve found the correct path eventually. People do make mistake. Plus, No body’s perfect. I believe that good things come to those who wait. =)

This is one of my plans! Haha. =D
Don’t aim for success if you want it, just do what you love and believe in, and it will come naturally.

Dean’s Award 2011. =)

Hey you all bloggers! I would like to share with all of you about my best day. It was on 15th September 2011. =)

Alhamdulillah. I got a Dean’s Award for last semester. This time The Dean’s Award Function was held in UiTM, Puncak Perdana at my faculty. Guess what? My faculty has gotten its new name that is Faculty of Film, Theatre and Animation. Pretty cool huh? =) Eventhough it was held at my faculty, not in the hotel and some sorts just like other faculties did but it was amazing ever! I had been surrounded by clever people. Haha! Don’t get me wrong okay and don’t ever think that i’m so poyo. Actually, this is my first time of receiving an award. I mean an award in academic achievement. Just so you know, i have never received any awards in academic achievement before. It’s damn seriously! I used to call my self as a loser and always be like that.

But not now. Alhamdulillah, i got it finally. I believe that when we have a determination to do a good thing for ourselves, we will get it eventually. Most importantly, you need to be patient and believe in your self, don’t think about other people would say about you. Just ignore the people who love to think negatively about you. That kind of people will always be like a fuck. There’s nothing we can do for those fuckers. All you need to do is, work hard on it. It’s you who shapes the future.

 Thank you Mama for willing to come eventhough you were just got back from school.
He is my dean. Prof. Madya Razak Hj. Mohaideen.
Asyraf! Ini pun nak tangkap jugak ke?!

Masa ni sumpah kelam kabut gilerr! Macam acara larian pecut 90 
meter rasanya.

These are my friends Abit, Sophie and AJ. =)))


With Aliya and Faezah. =) They are so nice to me. =’)

I admit that it’s not easy to achieve it because it needs a hard work. I had been worked hard on it. People keep saying that i’m clever. It’s so wrong. I’m not as clever as you thought. I’m just an ordinary girl who hopes the light will shine on her always. I’m not trying to compete with anyone else. I just compete with myself. I don’t wanna be afraid of what i’m doing. I’ll do my best. I just wanna believe in me. Amin. =’)

See the sadness through my eyes…

Tonight i feel lost and sad. Damn sad. I cried for hours. He gave a call last night and automatically it made me crying. To hear his voice, when he laughs. I miss those things and i want it to be real not through the phone!. I wanna see his eyes. To hold his hands. I want him to be with me. I’m not happy coz he has to be far apart from me. If i could change the destiny, i would make him to be in UiTM, Shah Alam and not UTeM!

I told my friend bout my sadness, She said that she knows how that feeling. She advised me to be strong and she understands how hard it is for me. I love the way she said to me that; ” We meet, and we seperate, but insya-Allah, you’ll meet him again. and he’ll be yours till the end.”

I realized that this isn’t a perfect world. People do get sad just like me. I’m always try to smile when i feel like crying. I act like i’m ok in front of my friends, my family, when i’m falling apart inside. And i try to let go, i try to move on, because i know there’s nothing else i could do. Ritzuan can’t be here with me everytime i need him just like before. He has to be in Melaka eventually. There’s nothing i can do. I hope after 4 years we’ll be together.

I believe that there can be no rainbow without a cloud and a storm. Pray for me and Ritzuan okay. I hope our relationship will last forever. Amin…  =’)